I found out something last night. When you allow God to subvert every aspect of your life, to fill you up, to consume you, satan doesn’t like it too much.
The problem is that he can’t really attack you directly always, so he goes for a weak spot. In my case, he went for my friends. Last night I was talking to 2 friends, one right after another, and both of them said something that almost made me cry–the thing was, it was almost the exact same thing. satan was mocking me, and he knew that I knew. ‘whatcha going to do about it, huh? you can’t help them Sarah, you never can.’ is what he seemed to be saying.
But I went into my room, and I told him off. I told him that he could not have me, and he could not have my friends. That these plans he has against them will not prosper, and that even if I could not do anything in my own power, my God can do something, and that He can knock satan down.
I prayed so hard, I danced for victory, I cried tears of brokenness, I prayed verses over them, until God told me to have peace and be still.
It was like pre-warfare 101. All through this also he was bringing up my past–those fears I used to have of being alone in rooms because of demons…but I cast those fears away from me. I know that I will have intense warfare later in life, but this was pretty bad…
God never said that complete surrender would be easy. He never said our lives would not suck at times. In fact he promised it. He said “in this world you will have troubles.” But I can tell you that it is TOTALLY worth it. Not only does my life rock even when it sucks, but I will live forever, not die forever. I’d rather go through thousands of rough days with God than one good day without him. Because God also said “but take heart, I have overcome the world”..
He is there, and he is intimately involved in my life. And I love that. It is totally worth it. My life is nothing unless God is in ALL of it.
*kisses* for you!
-Sarah
Warfare in the subverted life
August 13, 2004 at 11:06 am (Uncategorized)
