A few thoughts…

I can’t understand grace. Even if I try really, really hard, suddenly there’s workers who get paid full wages for working half a day and there’s sinners and there’s forgiveness and there’s ME. And I look at this miracle of life and this gift of grace and I wonder why everyone doesn’t believe this–why they just can’t accept the truth of the gospel. Being loved this well in ways I get to spend a lifetime discovering is so beautiful. Let’s tell everyone.

Part of me is frustrated at my lack of romantic interests. I cite companionship, future plans, not going after every boy, desire to support someone, all those things, and in the midst of them I lose God. I lose that He knows all parts of my soul. And that I’m young and I have no idea what I’m doing and goodness I’m not even close to being ready. And then, though part of me is still itching and wanting it, it’s ok. I can handle it.

I really can’t wait to throw tea parties. If I am not blessed with a husband and girls, I’ll just have to borrow a few for a day and have tea parties and teach them to sew and pretend we’re pretty, pretty princesses. And then we’ll read some Angelina Ballerina books and perhaps a few chapters of the Shoe books.

So my love languages are gifts and words of affirmation,  if anyone wants to know. It’s been really neat finding out what my friends’ love languages are and learning how to love them best. I definitely buy into Dr. Chapman’s theories.

As I was making that picture for my about page, I was thinking how much my face has changed since I’ve come to college. It’s matured…which is really nice. I hope I am looking older.

Lastly, redeeming love has been my theme and shall be til I die…

Katora,
Sarah

About…

I edited my About page. And it was hard, finding 5 things about myself. I’m doing a genogram for Marriage and Families right now, and I’ve found that the hardest thing in the world is categorizing people. We had to think up short descriptors of our families, and mine ended up being lame. But on the plus side, I helped my roommate categorize her family perfectly. Go me!

So I give you this question: If you had to sum up you in 3 words, what would they be? They can be either a phrase or single words.
OK, GO!

Sick. Yuck.

The other day I posted about chick flicks, great lines from a few of my very favorites. I was going to do a post about that, but then I got sick. I think it might be allergies or a head cold. Either way I am definitely feeling miserable, and all I want is to curl up in bed with some tea (and I hate tea), put on a chick flick, and have a guy bring me flowers (begins @3:20, ends @ 5:05. Sorry it’s so choppy…it was the best there was).

So any intense theological blogging will have to be delayed.
-Sarah

A fabulous quote

Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.

–C.S. Lewis, The Weight of Glory

Chick flicks.

Does he notice me?
“Does he hear my heart screaming his name–
sometimes it’s so loud I think the gods can hear my pain.
His voice is so mellifluous,
oh to get just one small kiss.”
-Never Been Kissed.

“I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you’re always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.”
-10 Things I Hate About You

“I wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly.”
-You’ve Got Mail

“I love that you get cold when it’s 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you’re looking at me like I’m nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because I’m lonely, and it’s not because it’s New Year’s Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.”
-When Harry Met Sally

“I kneel before you not as a prince, but as a man in love… But I would feel like a king if you, Danielle De Barbarac, would be my wife.”
-Ever After

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Do you think that chick flicks give us girls unrealistic expectations of love? Or do you think we know deep down that those aren’t really true. And if we do know that they aren’t true, why do we devour them like it’s our job? Is it healthy to?

I’d love it if you could comment on this. I want to write something about this later, but for now I’d like others input. Especially if any gentleman are out there.
Thanks,
Sarah

Beautiful

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Beautiful is by Bethany Dillon. Check her out at http://bethanydillon.com

I made this awhile back and it’s feeling true right now. Please click on it to view larger.
-Sarah

Confusion.

I’m falling farther
than I thought I would
This is getting bigger
than I thought it could.
Why?
Is this too much
Am I overwhelmed?
Is this merely a distraction?
Or is it life in action?
My lame rhymes can’t conceal my confusion.
I’m not sure what to make of this intrusion.
It’s happening.
I’m almost gone.
My stomach is there.
My heart is there.
My mind…where?
I feel so young.
So naive.
So immature.
So unsure.
So unready.
So confused.

I need a helper.
Wait! I have one.
Holy Spirit:
I’m just so done.
Help, please.
Thanks.
Kbye.

It may be bad writing, and ridiculously stupid, but it’s true.
-Sarah

Good books and some blogs…

Good books change the world. I believe that very strongly. First and foremost you only have to look at the Bible, the most influential book in history. No other book can change a person like the Bible can.

Having said that, I am reading two books right now that have got me so excited I can’t see straight. I actually have had to physically put them down a few times because my heart and my head were about to explode and I needed to get some air. Of course I am not going to hold back in telling you about these glorious books and hoping you pick them up.

For anyone who is interested in a great book, The Gospel For Real Life by Jerry Bridges is a beautiful and simple exposition of the truth of the gospel and how Jesus can change our lives–how we can experience the glorious riches of Christ. I would especially recommend it to new Christians or those who have grown up in legalism and want to see how the gospel can change their lives.

Another book called Transforming Grace, which was also written by Mr. Bridges, gets two thumbs up from me. He uses a lot of quotes from other writers in the book that truly have gone down deep in my soul. If you are like me, and have suffered under the weight of perfectionism/legalism in your relationship with God, I implore you to read this book. From the first few chapters where he talks about our mistaken belief in “sanctification by works” to the end where he explores all aspects of grace, it is a glorious exploration of grace. I’m a huge fan of Philip Yancey’s What’s So Amazing About Grace, and the two books are rather complimentary to each other.

I also recently bought a book that I haven’t read it yet, but all the reviews I’ve read are very positive, and I cannot wait to read it. It’s called When Sinners Say I Do; Discovering the Power of the Gospel for Marriage and it’s by a man named Dave Harvey. I’m taking a Marriage and Family class this semester, and so once I finish the last two chapters of The Gospel for Real Life I will start reading it and let you know how it is.

And now for a few blogs. I just wanted to catch you, my lovely blog readers, on a few blogs I’ve found of interest lately. I recently switched feed readers, so I’m in a phase where I’m trying to remember all the ones I read before as well as finding some new ones. Not all you’ll like. But I like them, so I’ll put them up.

finding grace is a wonderful blog about grace and how it applies to daily life. As another “recovering perfectionist”, I love reading about Emily’s story of the gospel invading her life.

Gospel Driven Life is from a pastor, and being as such, it is filled with a little bit more theologically. I go there to read about and mentally explore new ideas about how the gospel should apply to our theology and our lives as churches.

Completely unrelated to all this grace/gospel stuff are a few crafting blogs that I’ve discovered, most of which make me want to get married to a rich man so I can craft all day, have babies, make him good food, and be an artsy mother. And maybe write a few books on the side. I’ll keep you updated on how that’s going. In the meantime, here’s some of the cool craft blogs that inspired me:

futuregirl
is really cool–she crochets. I want to learn how to crochet now. AND joy upon joys, I saw someone in one of my classes today crocheting a hat. I need only to not be so broke so I can buy some supplies and work it out.

my half of the brain
is a cool little collection of free projects and such from across the web. I’m already feeling inspired to do some projects, including this quilt which I am officially in love with and WILL make once I get enough money to buy new needles for my machine and the fabric. I need a new comforter so I’m super-excited.

I have more, but I’ll save those for later. I think this post is way too long. But check out the books, please. They are glorious.
Kharzbon,
Sarah

truth

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We discussed propositional vs. personal truth in Theology class today, and it made me really happy to think about. First of all because I enjoy the slight stretching of my brain and topics, and also because it reminded me of what I know, whether personal or propositional.
That light graffiti picture was from the other night, when my roommate from last year and I spent time writing words in the sky. Not only did it turn out well, it is a fabulous reminder of truth that I believe is not only propositional but also intensely personal. God revealed himself to me ultimately in Jesus, through the wonderful miracle of the Incarnation. In that, I have been freely justified in Christ, and I have eternal peace with God.

Praise be to God, who has rescued me from the dominion of darkness and brought me into the kingdom of the Son He loves in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.
-Sarah