Packing up and leaving
April 28, 2008 at 3:43 pm (Uncategorized)
One more week. One more week and it’ll all be over, my sophomore-junior year of college. Next year I’ll come back and during this time I’ll be preparing for graduation, 3 short years after I entered. And boy is it terrifying.
This Sunday my pastor preached from the book of James, and he was talking about futures plans and such. I didn’t go to church, because I had to pack, but I was listening to the service online, when in the middle of the sermon it cut out. I was rather irritated because I was so looking forward to hearing it, but I’m going to listen to the rest of it tonight.
Anyway, the point is that I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know that I want to be married, and I know that I want to have kids. I know I want to do youth ministry at some point. I know I want to write at some point. I know I want to minister overseas at some point. I know I want to write curriculum at some point. I think I want to be a professor. I think I want to write books on systematic theology for teenagers. I think I want to write books on how to be a girl who embraces her femininity yet desires deeply to use the gifts God has given her. I want to disciple teenagers and see them grow into full faith.
But there are so many things I have no idea about. Where will I do these things? How? Will I have anyone to do them with? How many of these things will I end up doing? I don’t know.
The sovereign God knows, though. As I am packing up with my summer planned out, He has my whole life planned out. He DELIGHTS I think, in showing me His will in His timing. He delights in allowing me to squirm, knowing that it makes me trust Him more. As I clean out my room, He knows that next year as I’m packing up He’ll have exactly something He wants me to do. He is in control of this.
I don’t have to stress out about my future. I don’t have to freak out about a man. I don’t have to wonder if this tall, dark, and handsome boy I like will ever like me back. I don’t have to stress about events I’m planning next year. I can rather TRUST that God knows what He’s doing. I can REST.
What a glorious hope, what a great Savior!
-Sarah
Wendy said,
April 29, 2008 at 10:33 am
Yeah you are coming home! We MUST plan lunch before you leave for camp! I have this quote on EVERYTHING…I got it from a friend of ours (Kevin LJ)…it think it’s awesome.
I WANT TO WALK IN STRONG CONFIDENCE KNOWING I AM NOT IN CONTROL
Call me when you get home!
Bonnie said,
April 29, 2008 at 11:03 am
Hey, I was just wondering if you ever read the magazine Today’s Christian Woman? They have some articles in this month’s issue about singleness. Just thought I’d pass it along.
cool dad said,
May 7, 2008 at 5:29 am
While our tomorrows aren’t guaranteed, it’s comforting to know that God is in control and will stick with you no matter what path you choose. That’s grace at work. He might want you to go one direction, you might not listen and go another, and He’ll stay with you.
It may be comforting (though less spiritual) to note that at 31, I’m just deciding what I’m going to do with my life, or at least the next few years. And I’m glad things weren’t any different.
umlot said,
May 9, 2008 at 2:16 am
Hey! I don’t remember how I got here, exactly. What I do know is that this blog entry (the only one I have read yet) echoes some of my own happenings and interests. When I grow up, I hope to fill my blog as full of great things as yours (and figure out how to make it pretty and organized).
I started a journal/public platform on Biblical Femininity and have added some more “stuff”. I initially found your blog (I remember now what led me to your blog) by clicking on your name in a comment. I wanted send kudos on your ‘why are Biblical Femininity quotes and blogs boring’ comment and to ask if I could quote you on my own blog.
Sorry this comment is so long.
I look forward to hearing from you, and I wish you well in your current adventure!
If you’d like, you can visit my blog-thus-far at:
http://www.umlot.wordpress.com
~~~Peace at night and joy in the morning!~~~
Heather (Umlot)